Half Time Check In
December 9th, 2008Well, it is official, I am forty. Hard to believe because if you talk to people who are much older, a lot of the more vibrant ones tell me, “it’s strange because I really don’t feel a day over 25.”
I feel that for sure. I know at this point through the skills I have developed in the filed of mind body training, I feel like the 40 year Eoin has more athletic prowess than the 25 year old Eoin. I feel lighter, stronger, more agile, with more composure and wisdom.
The downside, of course, is my hairline seems to be slowly receding. That is going to be harsh, the no hair days that lurk in the future, but humans are pretty resilient, I hope I am too.
Aside from these physical changes, what else is happening in the evolution of my life path? One of the four essential functions of myth according to my hero, Joseph Campbell, is to help one progress along their stage of life and to feel at ease with that stage. What are the myths that help me be at ease with my mid-life journey?![]()
I definitely feel more and more as I age an interest in politics. At the very hour of my birthday 12 a.m. last night, I found myself on the couch at a gorgeous ocean front rental property debating politics with two good friends. I wouldn’t have seen that coming 10 years ago. I remember turning 30 and getting an amazing blowjob in an outdoor shower, making blender drinks from papayas in my backyard in Hawaii.
I was very concerned about the world then, but more from an ideological, almost idealistic point of view. I believed in “positive energy” and that being the change you wanted to be in the world was paramount and engaging in politics only “lowered your frequency.”
Now I feel the essential side of politics. The way we need to be engaged in it to ensure that our love mission does not get abandoned along the way by the forces of selfishness.
Thinking back, such conversations are indicative of how with each passing year, the field of politics and economics becomes more and more pressing. It can deflate your heart, wrinkle your forehead and knot the fibers of your stiffening back, so it important to unplug. To pull back. To let life become simple again before reengaging with the world of “adult concerns.”
Luckily, I practiced immaturity, the essential skill of gracefully aging people by getting in the hot tub with 8 good friends and letting our inner teenagers out right after our political debates.
I think it is key to have both sides of our personality open; the politically engaged and the Dionysian.
The 20 year old Eoin checks in, “I am proud of you, 40 year old Eoin.”
“Party side alive…” “check”
“Athletic side alive…” “check”
“Sexuality still playing a big role…” “check”
“Still learning and growing…” “no doubt”
“Still having fun…” “that’s a big aye, aye, Captain”
“Nice one bro,” says the dread locked, free spirit dreaming of becoming a prof of the Philosophy of Love. “On top of that, you are sitting in a gorgeous place in the world that you own, with a woman who loves you, off to surf with your good buddies and sea lions, and run a thriving business that is all about helping people reach their maximum potential. We developed these ideas well over the years, didn’t we? These are all things I would have wanted for you. Glad to see that you are still following what is true in your heart.”
I can only hope that the sixty year old Eoin on the other side is just as excited to see how this journey of life unfolds.
I feel the importance of every moment. The need to leave a legacy; a Positive Force; a Bliss Army; an Earth Community of open-hearted, yet strong individuals who share a similar commitment to the world. I feel a sense of stewardship for the planet and especially the ocean. I look forward to one day soon taking a little wolf cub into the forest to show him the ways of the world and the supreme ecstasy of a life around the ocean.
The first half of life has been an unreal journey. Welcome, round two. I am humble and ready to embrace you. Letting go of worries and treading fearlessly.
Dreaming Big and Living Large,
Eoin
